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He had spent weeks being "strong." He had been the man who cleaned the apartment, who went to work, who told friends he was "hanging in there." But as the alcohol dissolved his armor, the first tear escaped. It was hot and traitorous. Then came another.

He stood up, his legs heavy. He walked out into the cool night air. The city was indifferent, humming with the lives of people who were currently falling in love, blissfully unaware of how it usually ended. as_vrea_sa_beau_sa_plang_sa_mor

He didn't jump. Instead, he took a deep, shuddering breath of the cold air. The drinking was done, the crying was finished, and the part of him that needed to die had finally let go. He turned away from the water and started the long walk home, a little lighter, a little emptier, and finally ready for the morning. He had spent weeks being "strong

The bartender, a man who had seen a thousand such funerals for a thousand different hearts, silently slid a glass of water across the wood. Stefan didn't see it. He was looking at the bottom of his empty glass, where the light seemed to vanish into a dark point. He stood up, his legs heavy

It wasn't a wish for an end to life, not really. It was a wish for the end of the feeling . He wanted to be like the glass—shattered, inert, unable to feel the cold or the heat. He wanted to go to sleep and wake up as someone else, or perhaps not wake up at all until the world had moved on and her name no longer felt like a hook in his throat.

The first sip burned, but it was a localized pain—a welcome distraction from the hollow ache in his chest. He wanted to drink until the memories of her laughter stopped sounding like music and started sounding like static. He wanted to drown the image of the hallway where she had said "I can't do this anymore," leaving a silence so loud it felt like a physical weight.

By the third glass, the world softened at the edges. The bar noise—the clinking of glasses, the low drone of a late-night news broadcast—began to feel like a blanket. But the numbness didn't bring peace; it brought the truth.